What's on the agenda?

It's 330pm, i just had lunch and i am super sleepy (hahaha babi si ako), but i have to write a post. Syempre ayaw kong matalo sa challenge. It's only the second day after all.

I really meant to write down my 2009 list, but i still can't. I have been staring at the screen for an hour but the most i can come up with is just one lousy paragraph. hay, ano ba ito, hirap naman pilitin ang sarili mag sulat. I wonder how the columnist does it. I mean they have to come up with an article on a regular basis. Do they have several articles drafted? Where do they get thier inspiration from? What is there to talk about aside from politics, love and rants?

Is there someone out there interested in your point of view? Will he be affected by something you wrote? What if, without you knowing it, you changed a person's view on life or love or on politics?

It is often said that journalist should write with an objective eye. But can it really be done? Or is the writing style clouded by his view on life, his prejudices? Can two different journalist give a diffrent spin on one story? Which story is the correct version of the facts? Whose agenda will be on the table?

an update?

Wow, i can't believe he actually took up the challenge. He did update his blog and it's now my turn to update mine.

Hmmm kaso lang madaya un, may mga draft blogs na sya, so it's easier for him to post new updates. I, on the other hand, have to resort to inspiration or depen on my mood. But I guess, it is a good way to force myself to write things down. I kinda miss it.

I was going to post my annual "hello, good bye" piece. But i will save that for later kc naunahan na nya ako dun. What to write? hmmm, ano ginawa ko lately? ano nabasa ko? na realize ko? Wala akong maisip. This is harder than I thought it. hahaha.

So ano gawa ko today? Well aside from updating this blog, chatting with a friend, and reading the news on line, I am also watching an indian film. O diba, some kinda multi-tasking. hahaha kasya siguro ang short ng attention span ko.

Grabe nga eh, kung noon i could read a whole novel in one sitting. Now, i just cant. (well, unless it's a children's book or a business book). There are several half read books on my bedside table which i meant to finish but actually cant. hahaha. Na bore n ako halfway through the book. Hahaha bad annie. Siguro dapat gawin kong resolution is to actually finish reading one book a month, that would eventually be one book a week. hahaha.

2009 is shaping out to be a year of sheer will power. A goal to update the blog. A goal to actually finish reading one book a month. Ano pa kaya ang magandang goal? To look at the present and future more than holding on to the past?

Proof

If this is a contest, my friend would win hands down. He has started his blog a few days ago and is updating it frequently. Ako? well, i haven't updated my on line journal in a while. tsk tsk. Well, competition is a good motivation. hahaha.

I am now motivated to update this blog. For every blog that he updates, i need to update my blog too. How's that for competition.

This entry is proof enough. Although this is not an update on my life, it is in a way an update on my thoughts. :)

Ayan ha, may update na ako sa blog ko. More updates to come.

work + vacation

work + vacation is like oil and water. Dapat di talaga pinag sasama!

Moving to a new nest

In a month or two, i will be moving to a new nest. :) I have been looking forward to this move since January and hopefully, I will be spending my remaining "ber" months in the new dig. 

What does this mean to me? I can decorate my own pad. Buy my own stuff. Be closer to the office. But what it really means - GOOD BYE MRT RIDES! yahoo! Good bye rude passengers and hot, stuffy coaches. Good bye traffic. HELLO being home 5 minutes after I leave the office. 

Hermit mode

I have been staring at the screen for a while, not knowing what to write nor how to start. I know i have lots of things to unload, lots of stuff to do, things to reflect on, but somehow, i cant get my thoughts onto paper (or in this case, cyberspace).

Rebaselined goals part 2

I decided to rebaseline my 2008 goals for 2 reasons:

• One, I want to have clarity on what i really want, really need and how to get them
• Two, give myself enough time to achieve them

There really is no use to cry over things that went wrong, or what we have time. It's time to move on, learn from them and pray that things will work out for the better. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?

It's time to start counting the blessings that came and letting go of the negative... So what do i have to be thankful for?

My Family
I am thankful for having such a loving and supportive family. They thought me the concept of sharing (try sharing stuff with 5 other siblings and 5 cousins), how to decide on our own, how to be responsible for our decisions and most of all, they thought me about life. I saw love (romantic love, love for family and love for community) through the eyes of my parents. I pray that as i get older, I can achieve even half of what they have achieved. We might not always see eye to eye on things, but in the end we are always there for each other.

My Friends
They say that you never meet anyone by chance, there is always a reason for them to be in your life. I am very thankful that in this journey called life, i found these people: My elementary / HS friends, my college friends (trumba, kailan tayo magkukumpleto? Miss ko na ang sunday brunch natin!), my MBA friends and those i met at work and through friends. These are my true friends, friends who have been with me through thick and thin. They know me inside out (hey, they may even know some secrets my family dont know). Salamat sa inyong walang sawang pag tiatyaga sa aking kalokohan, sa aking moodyness at sa walang kamatayang appetite for food.

My Company
I am thankful for having such a wonderful company to work with. Although i might rant about the stress and workload i have, I still find it fullfilling to work there. My grey matters are working and I get to work with great individuals. My next goal here: take some trainings to expand my technical and leadership skills, learn to be more patient with people I work with and have that work - life balance. Promotion by end of the fiscal year will be achievable since i intend to talk to my mentor as often as i can, clarify what is needed and of course, exceeding expectations. Goal setting is crucial, that and being open to changes and being "visible" to people that matters.

Life, Love and Career
Other things that i am thankful for:

• Good health - I may not be the healthiest or the most athletic person there is, but i am thankful that i did not have 1 sick day this year. Health bonus here i come!
• Travel - athough i only go to travel to Hong Kong this year, at least i was able to take some time off to be with friends. Hopefully, I will be able to visit LA, Las Vegas, Chicago, Sydney, Paris, London, and Singapore soon. Dapat at least one travel a year ha! (have to get that travel savings starting)
• Meeting new people - I am thankful that i have met some new and interesting people lately. It have been a while since i had intelligent conversation with someone and i am really thankful that last week, i got to talk to one witty person. I am looking forward to having more meaningful conversations with him.
  
• Having a roof under my head - although i am having problems with the condo, i am still thankful that we still have means to pay for it. I am looking forward to moving in and decorating my own pad before the end of the year (that and not having to take the MRT in going home).
• Keeping my goal of having x amount in my eggnest - For months to go, and hopefully i will still have enough time to achieve my goal amount. Hey i might not have millions, but i know that i will have it in a couple of years.

Now what i really need is to have that plus one in glenda and bong's wedding on July 4, 2009. Sabi nga ng fairygod mother sa Cinderella, "Impossible things happen everyday", Who knows, maybe, just maybe i might still have that whirlwind romance before the end of the year (o walang cocontra ha!).

Tired

While a four day work week gives you time to recharge or take an extended holiday / trip out of town, it will also give you four busy work days.

I am drowning in all the reports i have to generate for the week, plus report for the month, but i also have to come up with a better reporting tool for metrics, learn some additional skills in excel all by my lonesome and attend meetings. Hay kapuy! Kulang ang mga araw.

Dont get me wrong, i would rather be busy than twiddle my thumbs all day. Hahaha. At least my grey cells are working.

Work is not the problem, it's getting to and from work that is! Umaga pa lang maaasar ka na sa kakahintay ng FX at traffic sa EDSA. :( Mafrufrustrate ka lang sa walang disiplinang drivers (especially bus drivers) at commuters.

Sa gabi naman, sobrang daming tao sa MRT. Hay, mga bastos pa ang mga commuters. Now if they make the train intervals a little closer (say 3 minutes), d siguro dadami ang tao sa platform. Ang solution siguro, add more trains, and closer arrival intervals.

Hay Kapuy!

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I am also tired of waiting.

Tired of waiting for the ball to drop - waiting for that one call or email or ym or even that one encounter

Tired of waiting for other people to make their move.

Tired of promises that people dont keep.

Tired of doing the same thing over and over again.

Tired of trying to live up to expectations

Basta tired na. What i want now is a new phase - a new person, or thing or something that will shake my world. Ilang months na lang at 2009 na. Dapat may mangyaring maganda soon!

Rebased goals

It's already August and still only met about 20% of my 2008 goals. I guess it is time to rebaseline this year's goals. bwhahaha. Para di naman mamula ang aking targets or ang aking "life project plan".

land far far away

i sometimes wish that i am in a land far far away.

yung bang somewhere that you don't know anyone and no one knows you. Malayo sa lahat pero di naman sa isang isolated island. Di ko feel mag survivor, pero feel kong mag temptation island. hahahaa.

What i really want is to have some time for myself, a place to think, a place to be myself without the constrants of who ever or what ever, a place to find who i can really be. Minsan kc feel ko nasasakal na ako, and i just want my own personal space. Pero parang mahirap maintindian ng iba.

Tama nga ang isang friend ko, sometimes you need to get out to find yourself...I do hope i get to have that opportunity soon. I really, really miss the last 3 months of 2007. Those were happy times.

Boring

All work and no play makes my life BORING!

time to take some action and party or better yet, plan another vacation. :) now if only i have the money to go to that one place i want to return to. Hay, miss ko na sobra yun, I could actually relocate and live there.

embracing my curls

I had my hair cut last sunday and now embracing my curls. :) Time for a new look. Next up, hair color