Friday, September 23, 2005

a tired heart

sometimes the heart just gives up
it stops to love
it stops to feel
and starts to numb

sometimes no matter what we do,
life takes unexpected twist and turns
leaving us with nothing but memories
of what we used to do and how much we loved

sometimes the heart just breaks down and refuses to function
sometimes all it needs is rest
a rest from the world around,
a rest from you

Monday, September 19, 2005

what a shame

It is no wonder that people are losing just need to see the front pages of newspapers, listen to TV or radio news program to get a glimpse of what is troubling the "private citizen".

So called "public servants" are really serving the interest of their parties and NOT their constituents as what is reflected by the recently concluded impeachment proceedings.

Government employees are losing hope in getting salary increases... the "cute" government has stated that our coffer is already running dry -- heck even the over time pay has been cut and to think that this is one bright light for an employee who is underpaid and never appreciated.

On the other hand, the “pork barrel funds” of congressmen, senators and other top-level officials have grown by heaps and bounds… tsk tsk, no wonder this country of ours is not going anywhere.

Since last year, government offices have been advice to cut down on cost and save. This is a good move to help the cash-strapped government since we really do need to save with the rising cost of fuel and all.

However, the so-called leaders are not practicing what they themselves are preaching. They still go around town with their gas consuming SUVs, indiscriminate spending on so-called communication expenses (i.e. cellphone calls) and going on so-called “official trips”. It is no wonder that people take whatever press releases the government churn out with a grain of salt.

Now in the midst of the so-called austerity measures, we learn that the arroyo government is spending P50M to a US lobbying group to convince the US government re charter change.

That is millions that could be very well spent on employee salaries or for infrastructure development… but no, the government has to spend this to get the nod of Uncle Sam. And here I thought that we are an independent country!

Hay naku, what is wrong with this picture? I guess even in this so-called modern era, after all the revolutions we had to gain our freedom, our leaders still think of themselves as little brown Americans, forever bowing to the dictates of Uncle Sam.

Friday, September 16, 2005

wet, wet friday

It has been raining non-stop since Wednesday night and being a commuter I find it a bit of a hassle to go to work. One sometimes arrives at work wet and shivering.

I was procrastinating this morning and even had the option to stay in bed the whole day. Alas, my conscience got the better of me, and so, I lazily got off my bed and prepared for work even if I know that I would be arriving a bit late at the office.

And now, there is nothing I would like more than to be in bed right now instead of being in the office. Hehehe. Things are a bit slow since it is Friday and I work at a government agency, so here I am writing something to keep me from sleeping. 

Is it just me, or does the colder weather makes people want to eat more? What are rainy day foods for me? Let me think, hmmm… arroz caldo, chicken soup, hot chocolate, popcorn, chippy, coke, cake, basta ang dami.

Reading a good book with some chips by your side is surely a treat … maybe I would do that later, or maybe I would have a bowl of puttanesca later.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

taking a break

Since I am taking a break from everything (work, life, thinking [?], emotions), might as well do something that will take my mind off things...

Your Personality Profile

You are dependable, popular, and observant.
Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.
In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do.

You are unique, creative, and expressive.
You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.
And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

Your Birthdate: June 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense.
Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise.
You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease.

You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them.
A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.
You focus on living a quality life.
You're not easily impressed with novelty.
Yet, you easily impress others.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Running on empty

Things are not working out the way I wanted them to. Plans were put on hold and even cancelled. Moreover, I was really looking forward to spending some time with a friend of mine (my friend’s hug and presence always seem to lift me up and makes me feel that every thing is all right with the world).

Lately I feel that I am running on empty – getting up in the morning has become somewhat of a chore. Work is not that exciting anymore, in fact it has become somewhat of a bore / routine. Maybe the reason why I feel what I feel is that I can’t find fulfillment in my job anymore, or maybe all I really need is a word of encouragement and complement for a job well done. Maybe it all boils down to feeling appreciated.

Appreciated not just by the people, I work for or with whom I work with, but more so, by the people who mean so much to me… People, who I consider part of myself, part of my life.

A gift of shoes or books would do wonders in lifting my spirits. A simple thank you or a gift of chocolates would be enough to get me through the day. A simple call or text to find out how my day went will surely bring a smile. In other words, a feeling of being loved and appreciated is all there is to it. .

down and out

darn, having the blues and seeing no sign of it leaving... Must be due to hormones, or the moon or what ever, but I do hope that this feeling of hopelessness and dispair will lift soon. Grabe, even my fave dark chocolate can't help... baka hug lang katapat nito, or maybe a long vacation from everything!

The problem with taking a vacation is that you need to have disposable income, and that is one thing I really don't have... wawa naman.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

the secrets of staying young

Got this off my email and would like to share the views:

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down. (Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches;)
3. Keep learning: Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain get idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!
4. Enjoy the simple things
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and Lots of time with HIM/HER.
6. The tears happen: Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourself. LIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love: Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

new phone

After a few days wait, my free phone (N6020) from globe handyphone was delivered! I can finally change my old (and abused) phone. hehehe.

I was really planning on aquiring a new phone (a SE or N6230i) by the end of the year, but couldn't pass the opportunity for a free phone (even if it wasn't the phone I really wanted). My philosophy -- as long as i can text and call my family and friends, ok lang kahit hindi masyadong high end. Besides, the phone is free!

The free phone is part of the globe rewards for their loyal customers (hey been with globe since 1996). As part of the reward, I would be renewing my contract with the company for 1 year. I have since computed savings (if i down grade my plan) and the cost of a new phone and found that renewing the plan and getting the free phone (aka bribe) is well worth it.

Actually, the rewards was not limited to a free phone or a discounted one, the customer can choice from rebates, handset discount / free handset or G-cash. Since I was really planning on getting a phone, I decided to get the handset discount rewards. There were other handsets (one pays for the cost less rewards discount) but I guess the miser in me kicked in... why spend so much on a handset that is more likely to depreciate in a few months? I would rather spend the money on books, shoes and FOOD! hehehe. Besides, the handset model that I really wanted was not part of the rewards handsets.

Anyways, just want to share this... to other globe post paid users/customers, check nyo with customer service if you are entitled for a reward once your contract is up. You might just get a good deal.

Monday, September 05, 2005

what now?

house majority kills impeachment -- will people take to the streets? even if PGMA will not be oust, her presidency will always be under a cloud of suspision... and who can lead a nation when no one trust you? The so-called impeachment process was just a moro-moro of PGMA's political survival.

SC says E-VAT constitutional -- with the ever raising cost of crude oil due to demand and the "Katrina" descruction, this latest news can just be the thing that will break the camel's back. Raising fuel prices means that Filipinos will spend more on basic necessities (fuel, food, electricity, etc) and less on other spending. Less disposable income would mean less spenditure on other goods which we really need to fuel our economy. Less spending means inflation. Kawawa ang Pinoy.

Higher cost would mean less food on the table... more people going hungry ... more people getting desperate, will the peace and order go next? No wonder more and more Filipinos are seeking work abroad.

Thursday, September 01, 2005


somehow life is not what it used to be... PANO LAHAT NG POLITICIANS BINEBENTA ANG PINAS! minsan nakakainis maging pinoy.

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